Sometimes it takes a lifetime to learn to trust the process. What does this even mean? Last Saturday in Jess Padula’s yoga class I read from Melody Beattie’s book Journey to the Heart. This is something that is done on the longer Saturday morning gatherings. It was dated May 9 and titled ‘Trust Each Step.’ What she wrote resonated with me, especially about wanting to take a big leap to get to the end of a process, a goal, or a lesson. But if we do that, we miss the experience of each step we would have taken.
When I think about trusting the process, it reminds me of trusting my intuition. Knowing myself and listening to my feelings helps when making a decision. I know when I’m doing what I’m meant to be, I get that excited and confident feeling. When I’m not, I get that sick sense in my stomach, and my heart rate might pick up from nerves. I’ll even get a headache. Paying attention to how I feel and what drives me helps. When I trust those feelings, I usually make the right decision. But there are many times when I trudge through a process despite the negative concerns. Let’s face it, we all have had to work jobs that we haven’t loved in order to pay bills, gone to events to fulfill obligations, or made a poor decision and needed to follow through on it. That’s a part of life.
Trust the Process
For me at this place in my life, I want to do what sparks passion and brings me joy.
This can also mean creating space for what I know is my path. Jess spoke about pushing back to create space for the next part of your life. This is a tought spot to be in when I’m in a nice cozy place that I really don’t want to leave or I’m too overwhelmed to make a move. We want life to fall into place without obstacles. We don’t want to rock the boat. But what happens when you can’t ignore that feeling anymore? When you have the distinct knowledge that you are on the wrong path? What happens when you are so crowded and consumed by what you don’t want that you HAVE to push back in order to breathe?
Oh yes, it’s uncomfortable. Yes, people may not be happy. They may be used to you handling a large part or all of a project, job, family, etc. If I trust I’m going where I need to go or doing what I need to do, and pushing back is the only way to get it, then I’m gonna push. In doing so, I might just create enough space for someone else to also get back on their path.
I do not come lightly to any decisions that rock the boat or change the course of my comfort zone. It would be easy to live each day the same over and over again, but that’s not how I operate. That’s why when I know I have to make a difficult decision, it weighs heavily on me.
One of the reasons I love practicing yoga is because of the challenges and the messages I receive in class. I rely on my community, but as was brought up in class, no one can carry someone or the work all the time and no one can be carried all the time. A community holds one another up when we fall and gives us space when we rise. That’s the same with trusting the process. Get out of the way and let it flourish.
Sometimes when I stray from the process it can take a long time to get back to where I’m meant to be. But maybe I didn’t really stray. Perhaps I was taken on a winding road that may not have made sense, but then when I connect back to my path, I have that ‘aha’ moment.
Trusting the process, fulfilling my passion, learning and growing never end. It’s up to me to create the space, breathe through the turmoil, push back or bring in. Trusting it, doing what you are called to do is the greatest gift you can give yourself and this world. Trust yourself, and you will be given what you need.